Psychology

It’s All Grasping

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Lately I’ve been contemplating several psychological phenomena I see in my meditations and self-analysis. The funny thing is the more I look at the different problems we face – and that we address with meditation, psychology, and spiritual pursuits, it all seems a whole lot alike. In a way that seems very familiar. It’s all grasping.

I have talked before of what I call The Escape Capsule, that place in our heads and minds where “we” hide. Where we run away from things. Where we think we’ll be safe, but we are not safe, and our “we” is ephemeral.

I’ve talked of the Place of Death from the Tao Te Ching, where we hide, where we cut ourselves off from life, and where we usually seal our fate by being so disconnected. We can’t move through the world and flow with it, we can’t respond, and we fail. I noted it was a lot like The Escape Capsule, if not the same.

In contemplating Desire, I’ve seen how I have habits of mentally grabbing or seeking certain things. I’ll latch onto something, some urge or thought, and my mind is engaged in everything from rumination to playing with mental puzzles. In fact, my mind seems to want to have something to grab onto – I imagine you’ve been there as well.

All three of these things I’ve analyzed over time- and named, are reflections of one simple thing – Grasping or Craving. You know, what Buddha warned us about explicitly in his Four Noble Truths, and what everyone else warned us about. Buddha though really brought it to the surface with his gift for specific organization, so game recognizes game.

Needing a separate self, needing to wall it off (in a way that ruins it), and just craving really are the same thing. We’ve got all these grabby complexes in our heads, burrowed into our habits and even our physical postures and tensions, that are active. They also end up backfiring and making us miserable if they solidify too much.

Desire and fear, hiding away and reaching out, it’s all the same, grasping. You can feel that in the tension in your neck, in the worry running around your brain, in the obsession that makes you stare at the cigarette or angry email in horror. You’re stuck in the machine, and the machine is what you thought you were – and thought you enjoyed it sometimes.

As we get reminded, craving, what makes us suffer, is the problem. But this is a reminder it has many faces. The desire that torments us, the cutting off we create, the attempts to escape – they’re all the same.

This is where I get thankful for the legion of sages, therapists, mystics, artists, writers, and so on that keep reminding us that being alive isn’t the same as grasping, or having, or running away from danger. It’s being alive, flowing like water, present, there. That’s what meditation and therapy and so on are about in the end – seeing, understanding, but most importantly being there and being real in the midst of it all.

It’s all been said before, but I’m glad people keep saying it.

– Xenofact

Maximum Exposure, Maximum Influencer Brain

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The term “Influencer Brain” is one that I’ve been using a lot lately. It basically refers to the way some people get so used to trying to be Social Media influencers, it warps how they think. They think in hits and likes, stirring up controversy and making memes, maximum exposure, maximum talk. Everything gets warped through the Social Media bubble, to the point where even meaningful things are meaningless.

I’m sure you’ve seen Influencer Brain. It’s probably gotten some of your friends and family. It’s definitely gotten quite a few politicians, media stars, and supposed business geniuses. It’s also really goddamn annoying because it’s hard to have a human conversation with someone who has Influencer Brain.

Now one area I’ve noticed Influencer Brain hitting hard is Very Online Christians and some Christian media stars. There’s the “Jesus Glow-Up” people who, I guess, use good lighting to show how Jesus made them more photogenic? There’s people gladly seeking controversy to raise their profile and probably get a gig on some blog or get donations for, I don’t know, being a jerk. It seems pretty weird considering Jesus even warned people about praying in public.

Is Christianity (in American) more prone to this kind of Influencer Brain? Well, that’s actually not what I want to explore. Because here’s the thing.

Christianity is the dominant religion in America. It is quite politicized thanks to various social-political efforts and traditions. So simply put if you see a lot of annoying Christian Influencers, how much of that is simply by the odds? If you’re going to see annoying people with Influencer Brain, wouldn’t they practice (well, pretend to practice) the dominant religion, especially one that is politicized?

I think we pretty much can guess yeah, it probably is. I have larger theories but let’s be honest, the numbers are a big thing here.

I think of this as a good warning, and a bit of humility. It may be easy for non-Christians like myself to have a good laugh at them. We may also take the fact that we see such widespread behavior very seriously as some of these Influencers do outrageous and dangerous stuff. But under different circumstances we might be at risk.

We might even be at risk in our own spiritual practice. What if your particular brand of paganism gets popular? What if you suddenly have a book on meditation take off? What if you just get pissed at these people, make reaction videos, they become a hit then you face audience capture?

I think it’s important as we understand Influencer culture to tease out the different parts of it, moreso when it comes to spiritual and political practices. There is some damn pathological stuff out there, but it might also be literally due to the odds, and we can read too much into it – and get too arrogant.

Besides, as we tease out these threads, we can further get to the important spiritual issues – without trying to sell a course or get in the news or whatever.

– Xenofact

Evangelical Christianity All The Way Down

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Something I’ve seen coming up in a number of podcasts and videocasts are people talking about – and dealing with – just how American (and Western) cultural thinking is a essentially Evangelical Christianity. It doesn’t matter what your religion is, if you grew up in America, you’ve probably got a good shot of fire-and-brimstone apocalyptic evangelism in your head.

The more I think about it, the more I see it. Yes that may be pattern matching, but I think there’s something really there.

There’s a streak of righteous punitive cruelty in American culture. Yes, we’re used to it in the “God hates everyone I hate me types.” But I also see it in people supposedly with progressive or humanist values, suddenly ready to throw out their beliefs to enjoy watching “them” suffer. There’s also a strong belief that people will actually learn from punishment, believed by the people who A) aren’t being punished and B) will probably say that they don’t change their beliefs just because someone threatens them.

There’s a kind of “Divinity-seeking” as well. There’s people, again who are distinctly NOT Evangelical Christians, who are still looking for a Big Daddy to tel them everything. Maybe it’s a political figure, maybe a writer, maybe some activist. They may even claim to have some belief in principles, but those principles are expressed in very anthropomorphic ways. Ever heard someone talk about “what science wants” or “what the economy” desires?

There’s the evangelism. Look, I’m a believer, I’m a guy that likes to speak and preach good ideas. I do enjoy it, but I wonder how much of this is cultural influence, wonder what I’d be with less influence from Evangelism. How many talks on technology, ecology, whatever sound like church services – it’s enough to lead you to find mind-numbing TED Talks soothing.

But most of all, over it all, is the waiting for Judgement Day. America has a huge streak of waiting for/wanting the Big Boom/Big Uplift. Once you think about it it’s hard to not see it everywhere.

It’s in our fear of Nuclear War hanging over our heads for decades – an understandable reaction.

It’s in talk of an Eco-apocalypse, which also includes no small number of people who hint darkly that we deserve it and that they will survive in a new heaven.

It’s in endless speculation about social collapse – and the order that follows. It’s not just racist internet fantasies, it’s people who happily talk about how Capitalism will fall apart and then we get heaven on Earth (without the effort of building it, apparently).

And as of this writing it’s in the speculation on “Artificial Intelligence” which apparently will both kill us all, and lead to an enlightened new world, and also give us AI girlfriends/boyfriends. The apocalypse is a selling point, be it edgy fear of “being so powerful” or talk of utopias (without covering the economic issues of the same). AI evangelism feels so familiar, the God in the Machine indeed.

I’d recommend taking a good look at how much of your life and actions is just repurposed Evangelical Christianity that you absorb like spiritual microplastics. Trust me, it’s worth examining.

Maybe at some point, I might even have to followup on my own experiences . . .

–Xenofact