Meditation

The Messiah Is The Method

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I suppose I should put this subtly, but I won’t. How many people can claim to follow some religious figure and get it so terribly wrong. OK, I’m talking Christianity in America, but you get the idea. How do you point at someone as your role model, your savior, and then be so completely different from them.

And yes, there’s the usual stuff about scams, grifters, bullshit, opportunists, and assorted motivations people have. There’s the desire to use religion to justify your biases, etc. There’s plenty of utterly evil motivations to say one thing and do so completely the opposite.

But a-holes gonna a-hole.

However I think for sincere seekers these attempts to emulate a teacher miss something – they miss that sometimes you can think too much about the person you’re emulating. The mind you use to contemplate your teacher isn’t the teacher’s mind. In many cases, it’s better to just give it a shot at being like them and seeing how it works out.

If you’ve ever done breath meditation, there’s a strange thing about it – thinking about it really doesn’t help you get better. Instead you have to do it, moment by moment, bit by bit. Somehow the doing of the action – as imperfect as it may seem – helps you get into meditative breath than thinking about it. The you that meditates and the you thinking about it are not the same- and the you thinking about it is probably kinda distractible.

In emulating teachers, it’s all well and good to contemplate and analyze, but you have to get off your butt and actually be like them as best you can. You may not “get it.” You may not get it right. You should think and analyze, yes, but the key thing is to start being a better person and see how it goes. It’s no different than a meditation in this regard.

In America I think there’s this endless amount of books, analysis, discussion, and so on that misses that if you’ve got some great teacher (OK, look I AM talking Jesus mostly) then go be like him as best you can. If you’re not sure read about him, read your Bible (or whatever), read some unincluded scripture, but give it a shot.

You’ll learn as you go.

If you’re all stuck in your head then you’ll argue endlessly – or worse, find ways to convince yourself you’re already fine. If you spend all your time thinking about what to do right, then there’s a chance you’ll delude yourself into thinking you’re right. Sometimes you take your best shot, and sometimes it’s pretty uncomfortable to realize how unlike your role model you were.

The person that’s our great example (yeah, look, again I am talking Jesus) is the one you’re following. That is personal, that following and emulating is a meditation. Just go do it.

–Xenofact

Cybernetics and Meditation

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We’ve heard the term Cybernetics many times, enough it’s hard to remember it’s use in technology isn’t the only meaning – or the original one. It’s the discipline of cybernetics, how feedback works. There’s quite a history there, and one worth studying if you want to get into it and possibly blow several hundred dollars on obscure books.

I took a casual interest in the basic ideas decades ago, but recently was reminded of it via the book The Unaccountability Machine. This book uses some theories and ideas from “Cyberneticist” Stafford Beers to explain why organizations seem to “go mad,” but also includes many asides on some wild and weird days when Cybernetics came to be.

One of the concepts the author explores – and the book, though amiable, can be a little heavy – is that complicated systems may not be worth explaining. It may take too much work to explain, may require breaking the system, and might just be beyond your capacities. Instead you can check the input, check the output, and otherwise not screw around.

I found this concept useful not just in my career, where I manage projects and try not to lose my mind, but in meditation. In some forms or phases of meditation, why is just disruptive.

In my own use of Golden Flower style breath meditation the goal is to tune your breath finely, to make it as slow as even as possible, that being your only focus. It’s too easy to analyze why you’re not doing it right, or what it should be, or anything else. This is especially bad if you have some experience with meditation – I’m sure you’ve been there wanting to get “back” to a meditative state.

I’ve been there to.

But I found lately that when I fret over meditative states that the idea of “do it and see what happens” from cybernetics helps me not fret. I tune and follow my breathing and what ever arises arises. It’s not supposed to be anything as the point is “doing and seeing” and trying to break it down or atomize it is not only difficult or impossible, there’s no point to it.

You’re just breathing and experiencing, and this feedback gets you to where you should go eventually. There’s no need to really try to take the system apart, and in fact you both can’t as the current “you” is the system, you’ll just get lost, confused, or worse anyway. So just do it and let input and output do its thing.

It’s a good reminder that, when you’re on a mystical path, to always be open to learning – and to not assume lessons are confined to a single sphere of knowledge. Not only do I have a new tool in my arsenal as a project manager, I also have a better way to understand meditation – and my own bad habits of “wanting to know how it works.”

–Xenofact

Faster Than The Speed of Human

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Everything seems to move so fast doesn’t it?

New product. New product update. Removing the new product update because of a security risk. Rival product. Must buy!

Social media post. The need to respond instantly. The need to respond to the response instantly, so you can seize the narrative.

Must-see video streaming. Bingewatch it. Now it’s gone. Now it’s back. You don’t want to miss out.

We have more of everything, not enough nothing, and it’s all so much faster that it feels like we’re getting lost. Buy, update, post, comment, watch, we’re all doing so much it feels like we don’t have time for ourselves. We don’t have time to be people.

We don’t have time to be human, we’re moving too fast for human.

No time for a nuanced reaction or contemplation of a purchase. No time to wrestle with ambiguity, with the sheer humanity of our situation. We’re all on to the next thing or the current thing, but it’s always something we have to react to, as opposed to be ourselves having an experience.

In the age of 24-hour internet-enabled media and culture we’ve left our humanity behind. We’re posters, commenters, customers, influencers, podcasts, all checking off a bunch of lists as fast as possible. But we’re not people to the big corporations, to the algorithm, and to each other.

This is why I’m appreciating meditation and quiet walks more and more in my life. A chance to stop, to be myself, to just be. I’m not in Social Media Samsara trying to keep up on a hundred things that I don’t care about or really don’t care to have an opinion on. I’m just there.

You can go so fast you’re not human anymore. Slow down and be a person.

–Xenofact